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Today
02:02
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today i woke up with a smile on my face
it’s the first time i’ve done that since you walked away
and i am learning slowly i don’t need you to complete myself
today i woke up with a song in my head
thought i better write that down before i forget again
and i hope you see this and know i’m doing okay
please, don’t worry about me
please, save your tears
please try and forget about me
though i’ll remember you for years and years
and years
today i woke up at a normal person hour
i did normal people things like brush my teeth and take a shower
and i’m falling back into the patterns i used to have
but when i wake up you’re in all of my thoughts
don't know how long it’ll be until i’m back to who i was
but please don’t feel guilty
you know i hate it when you're sad
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2. |
The Hardest Part
03:23
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i always said you smelled of warmth
so when the sun shines i stay inside, cover my eyes and try to pretend i don’t miss you
i’ve never been a very good actress
if i could cry on cue there would be so many tears for you, but I think i’m dehydrated
my body isn’t my body, it’s a comparative piece.
it’s a never ending study on why she was better than me and i can’t believe you didn’t spare me a second thought
the hardest part is knowing that you’re fine
the hardest part was your walk away while crying
the hardest part is i don’t know if you’re fine
but i’m not allowed to ask
you said the right thing is the hardest
i need to know why wasn’t it the hardest on you and only on me because i feel permanently broken
and the songs i hated but the songs you loved
have become anthems for my torture
when you’re all i’m thinking of
the ink on this page might as well be blood
because this song is my heart ripped out for you my love
the hardest part is knowing that you’re fine
the hardest part was you walking away and crying
the hardest part is i presume you’re fine
but i’m not allowed to ask
why do colours remind me of you?
the green of your room, the red of your name, the dirty black i left make up stained, the yellow of the stars that never shone for me anyway
the hardest part was breaking down
the hardest part is the fact you’re not around
the hardest part is when i can’t stop crying
the hardest part is when i feel like dying
the hardest part is i need you by my side
the hardest part is i thought you were mine
i thought you were mine
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Lost and Found (Part II)
02:56
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we take our last breath
no one around to hear it
i’m searching for someone
but it’s deserted
lying where you left me
too afraid to even breathe
i thought we had a bit longer
didn’t they say love was meant to be stronger
i thought we ended too quickly
but you couldn’t wait to get rid of me
i was a fool
to fall for you
they all told me what you’d do and
who’s the lost one now
who’s the lost one now
i was a fool to fall for you
they told me exactly what you’d do but
who’s the lost one now
i’m not looking to be found
you said it to my face
now there’s nothing to erase
the stupid dreams i get at night
because every time i see you
saying “this isn’t what i want to do
but we both know that it’s right”
so tear up the maps
i’m not coming back
every time i see you i crack
so rip up those maps
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4. |
Vignette
04:03
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i've been doing this for so long
can't quite get the hang of it
but my feelings for you are too strong
i just can't get used to it
i swear the stars have aligned
i know they say that in all the movies
but i mean it this time
what have you done to me?
i swear i'm a mess
but whatever you do to me
you bring out the best
'cause i don't wanna leave
i don't wanna go
i don't wanna think about the future no more
i was a girl who lived inside my head
you brought me out of it
i don't need the past
no not anymore
i don't wanna think 'bout what the world's got in store for me
it blurs round the edges cause you are my focus
and we are a vignette baby
you know how i feel for you even if i can't say it
this love and the fear you wont reciprocate it
i'm trying harder everyday
so thanks for not just throwing me away
yeah
what do you see in me?
i swear i'm a mess
but whatever you need from me
i'll try my best
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5. |
Pick Up The Phone
03:13
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i could promise you the world
but i don’t think you’d believe me
i could give you everything inside my memory box
i could offer you my heart but it isn’t mine to give you
you’ve already got it under lock
i could show you the sights of the village i grew up in
but you’d be unimpressed because you’ve seen it all
and i will do my best to try and woo you
but there’s nothing i could do to make you fall
so i’ll (i’ll)
just (just)
drink one too many
and i’ll (i’ll)
just (just)
collapse at your feet
and i’ll (i’ll)
tell (you)
that i still love you
this is my final sign of defeat
i could tell you the truth is i never want to see you
and i could change my mind the very next day
and i could go to your house the next time i feel like dying
put you’d probably tell me to go away
so i’ll (i’ll)
just (just)
drink one too many
and i’ll (i’ll)
just (just)
collapse at your feet
and i’ll (i’ll)
tell (you)
that i still love you
this is my final sign of defeat
please please answer your phone
'cause i can't spend this night alone
please please pick up the phone
you used to read me poetry, remember?
please please answer your phone
'cause i can't bear this night alone
please please pick up the phone
i guess i'll see you in november
so i’ll (i’ll)
just (just)
drink one too many
and i’ll (i’ll)
just (just)
collapse at your feet
and i’ll (i’ll)
tell (you)
that i still love you
this is my final sign of defeat
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6. |
The Fog Song
03:36
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Beth O'Reilly Ireland
irish queer singersongwriter who is in a permanent state of chaos
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